Contentment

Everything I need is already with me.

Peace

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you.  Not as the world gives do I give it to you.  Do not let your hearts be troubled or afraid.  John 14:27

I have been troubled and afraid lately.  I have journaled, gone to meetings, attended Mass, called my sponsor and friends, completed 10th steps, had a written food plan, daily 'to do' lists, read inspiring literature...why am I still afraid, and overeating?

Be still and know that I am God.   Psalm 46:10

I have been so busy trying to fix things myself and frantically using all the tools I could think of to make things better...EXCEPT be still...sit with God...quiet my mind and be with God...pray whiule just being in the present moment...meditate. 

I will find no peace or serenity until I do these things.

Love and Listening

Love is above all, the gift of oneself.   Jean Anouilh

from For Today, February 12
In order to give the gift of myself, I need to see how I have been avoiding it.  There are two ways of doing this.  One is to feel that I am worth nothing, that no one would want me.  The other is to make it clear that you ought to recognize how wise I am and follow my advice.  Both are protective shells; neither is the best I can give.  Giving of myself means giving quality time - listning to another without thinking of what I will say next; listening without giving advice; listening with energy and care; listenng so intently as to forget myself.  It is in that instant that I give myself to another.

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Morning Reading and meditation

I spent about an hour this morning reading spiritual and recovery literature, writing in my journal, and generally trying to immerse myself in the recovery program, which is spiritual in nature, although it sure helps with my overeating and compulsive eating.

I tried to meditate, but I found I had filled my head so full of stuff I couldn't concentrate, or let go of all the thoughts.  Result:  7 minutes of meditation.  The intent was there.  I'll try again this afternoon or evening.

Honesty

I eat compulsively.  When I am stressed, the first thing I want to do is eat.  So, surprise, surprise...I am overweight.  But, I am working a strong spiritual program to deal with it.   They say we need to learn to act on life, rather than react to it, and I believe that.  I tend to react, do sometinbg, do anything (eat?) rather than stay here and feel those feelings.   I've begun meditating, which is helping to slow down, calm me down, and give myself time to think through things in my life rather that reacting to them.

Thought for the day:  Let nothing disturb you, let nothing make you afraid.  All things are passing.  God alone never changes.    St Theresa of Avila

Prayer, Meditation and quilling

I spent the morning in prayer and meditation, then surfing the net for quilling sites.  I found instructions for setting up a blog and am delighted with the result!  Today I am planning to quill teardrop flowers for an Easter card.  I found one I liked and printed off the picture.  I wonder if I can post the photo to my blog...